Room to breath....

As I await my departure from this place, I am understanding exactly why I vowed to never stay here. There is so much history, so much love, my first love and many heartaches. In this place, are friends I thought i'd have forever, experiences that at one time I thought i'd never want to live without and the idea of what i thought was growing up.... But you know what? I made the move along time ago and am reminded NOW, as to what those reasons were for me leaving. No need to go in to detail, but somehow I thought that I could conform throughout  " growing up" to at least be able to be live amongst this caliber of people, if only for a short while. Now, when i say "this caliber of people", I don't mean any disrespect. I mean that "this caliber of people" are perfectly fine with living without change, adversity and the challenges that the rest of the world will bring to them, and that's alright. That's completely fine. To each is own.

   So, talk about being judged? You'd think that people who live the simpler lifestyle would be more accepting to ones who are about change and adversity, but instead they are the most critical. But what these motherfucker's need to realize, is that I was never from that way of life and never be like them. I am no better than the next man, I bleed red too, but because I see more, I am the bad guy? here. That alone is enough for me to write a lot of things off around here. To not look back. Fuck 'em