is this what it is?

Why do I feel the utmost pain and suffering right now? Is it because of all of the pain and hurt that i've brought towards others? I believe so. Do I wonder why? Not any more. Only because I can realize what ive done, not who I am. I've realized that I have lost track of others needs instead of  putting their needs before mine. I am ashamed of myself because of that.......I'm working on it.